Prim...Dude...I can't imagine you not being able to speak your mind with anyone....
Just do it man. Don't worry about what she's going to say or do. She obviously has an interest in you on some level. At least enough to want to find out more about you. You'll never know until you try.
PP...come on, the girls didn't like that cuddly teddy bear thing you got going on there?....You're just too damn shy and sweet for your own good....hehe! That's cool though. You'd be surprised how many girls REALLY get into that. I'm glad you're not letting that whack-a-doo treat you like a doormat anymore. Congrats by the way on the new baby on the way. Sorry to here about the miscarriage. I thought you already proposed??!! Take her shopping one do and tell her to pick out a ring. That'll surprise her...hehe. I wish you luck man. I know you really love her, and I think she knows you're wanting to propose to her. Don't let her down dude! You guys been through too much shit together, it just seems natural for it to happen. You can do it! Don't sweat the presentation, just get it out there--I know she is waiting for it. Good Luck!
As for me, I've had my share of ****ed up relationships--no big secret there. I've done the casual sex thing, the totally devoted lovesick thing--you name it, I've gone through it. Now, I'm just having fun. I find someone on my wavelength, we'll go out and have a good time. If I get something out of it, great! If I don't, I didn't really need it anyhow. Life's complicated enough just getting by day by day. If a girl can't hang with my personality, lifestyle, my work schedule, whatever may crawl there ass about me--to hell with them. Not like I can't meet someone else who can relate. Until that one comes along, I'm just gonna kick back, relax, and enjoy an ice cold Mich Lite and have a good time....
If it ain't broke don't try to fix it! But, hell if you can tweak that bastard just a little bit more....hehehe.