okay everyone, I've got my mind set. I'm planning on proposing within the next few months (feb-Apr). I pretty much know how I'm going to do it.
I'm going to invite her out to a picknik to one of our local parks. It'll pretty much be the same as our first date. I'll get some pizza (which is what we had) and a few bottles of water, again just like our first date. I'm even thinking about using the same blanket we used then, if it's not too badly torn up by now. so after we spend an hour or so sitting and talking and looking into each others eyes (like the first date) I'm thinking I'll ask her to walk a little with me. during the walk I'll tell her how much I love her, how I want to spend the rest of my life with her. how much I want to have a big happy family with her. I'll give her a big long hug after which I'll back up a step while still holding her hand then drop down on one knee and ask her to be my wife.
of course I'll be doing all this while fighting off my "studder when I'm nervous" problem.
this is pretty much what I have planned anyways, but I'm sure it isn't going to work out exactly how I want it to.
now I need to get a ring, a nice one that isn't gold (neither of us likes gold jewelry) I'm thinking about going with titanium. I've seen a few nice ones online. and I have to find out a way to get her ring size without her knowing what I'm planning. I'll probably do that by buying her another ring (for her other hand).
there's also a few other problems I need to work out.
1.)I don't know how my ex will react (she is crazy after all).
2.) my girlfriend actully broke up with one of her ex boyfriends on the spot when he proposed to her, and from what I gather they were together for a while. of course she was yunger then (still in school) and didn't feel she was ready to be married. this scares me the most out of the 3 preoblems. I'm sure you can see why.
3.)and there's the fact that as soon as we get married my Girlfriend will lose her job, which she seems to like a lot (but she already told me she wouldn't mind quitting if she had to)
good thing I'm giving myself a few months to prepare.
I HATE metaphorical rain.
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