You want an honest opinion?
You deserve whatever you get!
Hopefully your wife will leave you and your mistress will decide that the relationship is no longer exciting because you are no longer out of reach.
She will find somebody else to cheat on you with or you will find somebody else to cheat on her with.
Think about it, your wife will NEVER be able to fully trust you again.
When I divorced my first wife because of her running around............... the dude she was cheating with left her because it was no longer exciting. He and his wife also got divorced because I let her know what he was doing.
Hopefully you will make better choices in life when you actually mature some.
The grass is rarely greener on the other side of the fence and it can wither and die in a moments notice.
Other than all of that, I am going to assume that this is spam.
I would much rather go to my grave not needing my gun, than go there wishing I had it.